I was in the front when he yelled at me a couple of words I couldn't understand.
While I was laying down in the bunker, I only could ask me some things: would I die there? Would I deceive anyone more with my lost mind, with my lost me? I couldn't get an answer by that time. Then a little spark of courage hit me and I ran after him.
With a sarcastic smile and without a single gun in his hand, he just started to run backwards. I couldn't measure how angry I was, how I was aiming to shot him until he was falling down on the floor. I was blind by my madness, by my mind, by myself.
Locked up in my will, I started to shoot. One, two, three, four, five shots. He fell to the floor, but like I couldn't imagine, he rised laughing. A triumph laugh. Confused, I stared at that all scared - I felt my fear from within.
Without outline any aggressive reaction, he started to talk.
What the hell is your problem, mate? - All calm. I was still scared about that I was in.
A few seconds were sovereign at that moment. Just at that moment. After that, I wasn't understanding nothing more and I didn't know what could I do, what could I think, and that was enough for him. Then some kind of unknown despair ran through my blood and I yelled:
WHY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE?
And then I received the answer I could not ever, ever, ever expect.
Did you ever asked yourself why can't you kill me?
Did you ever considered to think about what am I?
No, obviously you didn't. But I'll tell you.
YOU CAN'T KILL ME BECAUSE I AM PART OF YOU.
YOU WILL NEVER KILL ME ONLY WITH YOUR ANGER. YOU NEED TO WANT TO. IF YOU KEEP WALKING ON BLIND LIKE THIS, YOU'LL NEVER GET RID OF ME. I AM IN YOUR MIND, I AM IN YOURSELF. NO GUN CAN KILL ME BECAUSE I AM PART OF YOU.
And then he gone away and I fell down to the floor. I finally knew what happened, but my enemy was still alive.
No comments:
Post a Comment